Another terrible nightmare this morning, after a night of poor sleep. I was comfortable, just could not shut up the brain. Most of the day felt like I was trying to function with white fog clogging the synapses, and even my vision is affected with days like this -- everything has a white, gauzy haze to it. Could not do anything for the construction business and was very lucky that is was a surprisingly quiet day. Gave up about 2:30 and napped. A very long nap. Still feel half human, but feel as if I'm coming out of a fugue state. These don't happen often and to tell you the truth, I don't think I've ever mentioned them in an entry or to friends. I rebound, work long hours and forget it even happened until months later, white fog closes in again. It is a strange, surreal experience to realize that you suddenly cannot think... you sort of realize that you're not grasping even basic sentence structure... explanations to other people are disjointed... and if it wasn't me inside this body, if I were watching it from the outside, I would assume distraction or drugs. It's strange feeling as if your IQ just dropped 40 points in one morning, but at least it goes away and I will be back to normal tomorrow. I think.
Posted by toni at March 3, 2004 10:53 PM